Let’s say about the facts./
I had been… wasting my time…… for the past 2 months doing exceptionally nothingg at all at home slacking off waking up late and whatever.
But say what you want to say but I think I might as well enjoy the time I am having at home doing nothing having to worry about nothing at all.
I had accomplished of course in my opinion…… a few things that doesn’t even concern you…..
The reason of this post…. is to tell you that I don’t give a fuck about what people might think of me or what they might think of someone they want me to be. which I wont .
I wont be someone that expectation and what society wants. I am the person I am today all because I have freewill. I have the will to do something I want and to own something and to think things I want .
I have the right to dream.
in fact. everybody just had the moment to shine……
I finally had the chance when JPA shortlisted me for the interview back in last Thursday at permatang pauh UiTM.
This made me realise I was one step closer to my dreams. I am serious. I can feel that everyone really wanted to go to the country they picked and so do I !
I always wanted a change in an environment. Not that I hated this place, it’s just I don’t like the feeling of being stucked and doing things so normal that it sickens me!
I don’t want to be in some fancy college that everybody goes to and…. well be lost in life.
I wanted to go out there to search who I wanted to be in the future.
You all might think that I got it all in my fingertips but to be honest. I don’t .
I don’t !
Who knows that I might be someone that I never thought of one day?
It’s this time in the world when u realised that you are 18!
but yet you don’t have the MONEY you don’t have the POWER and POSITON at all……..
Then u dropped yourself underneath your parents… for they are the ones that set up a future for you. A path for you…..
I thank my parents you know but sometimes I just feel that….. I am not happy
I am not complaining about my house or the fact that I don’t have an iphone… *the last one cracked and smashed by myself*
I am saying that I am not sure of who I want in this year.
I am sorry I failed you MARCH, APRIL…. May… MAY!!! IS COMING LIKE IN 4 DAYS YET I DON’T EVEN HAVE A FUCKING RESOLUTION FOR … 2013.
What am I lookin forward to???
I felt so lost.
I am like so lost in a sea of reality.
just the problem at the moment.