2 weeks notice

sometimes

I wonder why do I have a blog?

what’s there to share when you didn’t even know who’s even reading.

what might they do after they read about your thoughts?

will they try to understand and maybe tried the things you’ve written on your blog?

will they try the ice cream flavor I ate in the previous posts?

will they take pictures similar to mine just because they like it?

Another random post I am sharing here, the semester break is here, like finally*

But I havent had anything planned ahead yet, unlike before I used to have these tight schedules but it seems like I am so not-planned this time.

Guess, I think I really do need time to rest. Take these 2 weeks to pamper myself well… do the things I would like to do without caring about the time without caring there’s school tomorrow, without sleeping for only 45 minutes for every afternoon nap…. I can take my shower later and have my lunch whenever I want.

I can read countless of shoujo mangas and watch as many episodes of dramas, I can even watch 3 or 4 dramas at one time…

holidays gives us the definition of FUN ahah but I might take it as a getaway. It doenst mean I have to get out of this island or what I just want to relax myself and have some alone time not for you or anyone just for myself.

god I would want that, but not this holiday….. I want to rot myself in my sheets and sunk myself into shoujo world… and I want to be totally sewed together with my favourite bias

those just got to wait .

I googled THINGS TO DO WHEN IM BORED.

Google gave me great suggestions !

but these made me CLICK

The cure for boredom is curiosity. There is no cure for curiosity. - Dorothy Parker

So I listed out a few things I might want to try during this holidayy

1. read a genre of manga I will never thought of reading

2. watch SAW and it’s sequels

3. Jog continuously for 3 days

4. finish reading my unfinished novels.

5. Reread those novels that made me happy

6. Rewatch a few rom coms I used to watch last time

7. Watch anime

8. Reread The Lost Symbol

9. Read an encyclopedia

10. Take pictures of myself everyday

11. Sit in BORDERS for a day !

12. Dress up !

13. stuff myself with chocolates!!

14. go skating

15. write random stuff on my notepad

16. study.

17. go out for some great food

18. sing

19. finish my incomplete stories

20. sleepover at shuyee’s

21. go to the beach

22. watch real performance real art

23. really see a sunrise or sunset

I think that’s what I can thought of at the moment.

for now I've been listening to this song

LOVE RAIN by Jang Geun Suk

Drizzle drizzle, the sound of the rain
Rub dub rub dub, my trembling heart
Drizzle drizzle, rub dub rub dub
The sound on the umbrella, the sound of the rain, the sound of my heart
Love rain is falling

The two of us walked the rainy streets
Under the small umbrella, my shoulder got wet

This is the 3rd drama I really am into this year anyway I hoped it ended well…….. (I know it’s finished but I wouldn’t wana know the spoilers)

Hope you guys really have a great holiday ahead unlike mine

x

The world behind my wall

suddenly there are so many thoughts running through my mind, I guess you can guess it because I’ve used that as the title. My MP3 was on shuffle and suddenly this song is on the track list.

That’s right,

TOKIO HOTEL !!

This song is like years back but it never sound outdated or what you know, I like the front part the most especially before Tom’s voice is heard. Anyway, still if that song doesn’t really have an intriguing intro I wouldn’t have hear it anyway unless… the SKIP button was missing.

The lyrics are great, to my understanding its partly a song about how TOKIO HOTEL had lived from the day they were a band. Mostly about TOM and BILL the twins… because they had been famous since they were small back in GERMAN, and they  never really had a normal childhood because stars like them in German cant really run in the fields with their couple of friends. They were surrounded in bodyguards… and just like what they mentioned on the 2nd verse.

‘drenched in disguise’

I like how real bands really write real music and not just some comercial club hits or whatever people hear nowadays, People ask me what music do I listen? Normally I don’t listen to PITBULL or any of FLORIDA or NICKI MINAJ or whatever mix they had , for some people that’s what they think music is, but I don’t think music that gives you seconds of high , doesn’t leave you any impression on that artist, like seriously you see this Music Video of some black man or any blonde singing to repetitions of OH OH you made me high, BOY take the bass whatever they had in their lyrics which is MEANINGLESS n POINTLESS, seriously will you think that artist has attitude or somehow you think she’s beautiful because SHE’S IN THIS MUSIC VIDEO SINGING ABOUT HOW HIGH IS SHE?!

Sometimes I don’t really get how some people might feel. I like music that gives you this thud in your heart and the things you can relate to, some people are worse, they say they like the music because they RELATE to what the club hits are saying, seriously, YOU GET DRUNK EVERYDAY AND DIDN’T GO TO WORK AND STILL HIGH? or or YOUR GIRLFRIEND IS OUT OF TOWN AND YOU WANA HAVE SOME FUN EVERYDAY?! or or YOU CHASED SOMEONE OUT OF THE CLUB JUST BECAUSE HE WASN’T HIGH ?!?!

SIGH!

what are people thinking nowadays !!!

How disturbing to know that some lyrics even had hidden meanings like those club hits talking about getting laid tonight or they will DIE just because they cant have sex, seriously?!?!?! DON’T TELL ME U RELATE TO THAT???!?! I think 99 percent of people can live WITHOUT sex, and still living happily as well !

What I really look up to is that those bands and those singers that doesn’t compose songs of the SAME TUNE, or AUTOTUNED and their lyrics with true meaning about how they felt .

and not, anything related to Dirty Bass or whatever they called it .

x.

=

這樣的男人，若找到千萬不要放手
1.朦朧醒來回妳信息…
2.半夜裡接妳的電話…
3.告訴妳：到家打給我…
4.妳半夜睡不著打給他…他會陪你聊天…
5.雨天…同撐一把傘…他衣服的一半是濕的…
6.不論走到哪裡…都一直拉著妳的手…
7.願意吃妳吃不下的東西…
8.不遲到…妳遲到他不會生氣…
9.不論去哪裡…他都會來接妳…無怨無悔…
10.不亂花錢…但肯為妳花錢…
11.擁抱很久…很緊…
12.記得妳說過的所有事…
13.輕輕擰開妳擰不開的汽水瓶…
14.常發訊息告訴妳…突然很想妳…
15.常給妳留言…
16.不舒服時…他會很擔心很著急…
17.吵架時不會一走了之…
18.他錯了會認錯…妳錯了不會怪妳…
19.吵架後…會無條件地哄妳…放下面子…
20.從不忍心責備妳…無條件包容妳…
21.會一直保護妳…害怕妳受一點點委屈…
22.妳說笑話他會笑…會覺得妳很可愛…
23.比妳高…
24.會一個人安靜地思考…但絕不冷漠…
25.許多方面都很厲害..讓妳崇拜…
26.會一直誇妳…給妳鼓勵…
27.不對妳隱瞞什麼…
28.信任妳…
29.不花言巧語…
30.不會因為玩遊戲而忽略妳…
31.不抽菸少喝酒…
32.有活動安排事先和妳打招呼…
33.和朋友出去時..要想著妳…
34.重大的事情和妳商量…
35.和大人在一起像大人…和孩子在一起像孩子…
36.喜歡妳…從未猶豫…不拿妳和別的女孩子比較…
37.從未想過離開妳的世界…
38.妳買給他的東西他都會喜歡…
39.對女孩子有風度…也有距離…
40.認識妳的一些好朋友…拜託她們照顧妳…
41.瞭解妳的煩惱與困惑…不厭其煩地傾聽…
42.很少讓妳哭…妳哭的時候會很心疼…緊緊地抱住妳…告訴妳都是他的錯…
43.可以隨時找到他…
44.靠在他肩膀的時候很安心…
45.和他在一起有種溫暖的感覺…
46.不重色輕友…也不重友輕色…
47.計劃的未來裡…妳是重要的一部分

Distant ,

taylor swift

is

the

best

Why am I posting about this ?

Exams are currently on and whenever I felt pressured, I put myself into Taylor’s songs and it does brings me back a lot of memories

I used to be a big fan of hers when she got her first album, but then she suddenly sings those pop tuned songs that made me hate it … but then I still am a big fan of hers because she really sings what she thinks and I can feel it in her lyrics and her voice.

I love all her FEARLESS album songssss and I can hardly find the FAVE song because I seem to like all of them. Don’t use speakers to listen to her songs. that’s what I have to say whenever it comes to advices because you cant really feel what taylor feels throughout the song but if you plug in those ear phones what you can hear is not just A SONG about LOVE, it’s about a diary of pretty much her life.

How she fell in love and how the way she felt love fearlessly.

She reached out and she got hurt…. and it’s just like another ordinary girl…. she made me feel so down to earth and not just like any other singers who won awards and are like so 100000000 miles away from us.

 

By listening to her songs she makes me feel special because I felt the same way as Taylor felt in her songs. I liked the way she tells us how she likes this guy and how the way she wanted this guy to like her as much as she likes him… then she gives us this picture of how the way they loved each other and how the way they broke up… and most importantly are her OWN emotions.

she mostly sings her heartbroken days compared to those lovey dovey days

she is like so seriously brave like who would put up their heartbroken stories in a song and sung it into a melody and like turn it into an album and so many people listens to your story.

all of her melodies are like so catchy, I CAN EVENTUALLY SING EVERY SONG OF HERS BELIEVE IT OR NOT and whenever I hear her voice my heart really skipped a beat !

One of my favourites will be UNTOUCHABLE.

CLICK HERE

You should like listen to it !

Because in that song, she tells us about this one person she likes and how hard she is reaching out to make the person know her existence, that guy is like UNTOUCHABLE like a distant diamond sky she never can reach, and she just felt so happy or undone whenever the guy is near her. The most interesting part is the chorus which says, ‘In the Middle of the night when im in this dream, it’s like a million little stars spelling out your name’

I like it like so damn much because she puts the stars written into a guys name? Like who can ever like a guy THIS much? What I mean is she makes me want to fall in love over and over and over again.

One thing is she is original, tho she might FALL IN LOVE in ALL OF HER SONGS with DIFFERENT STORIES which makes me rethink about how many guys did she ACTUALLY LIKE? or is she just trying to create an image of a ordinary girl who keeps getting her heart broken. One of her famous heartbreaks would be JOE JONAS. we all knew she once had this serious relationship with joe .

This can be listened in her song called Forever and Always , I like the way she told us that she kept waiting by the phone for his call but he never call and how she just frankly believed in any guys’s who said the word FOREVER, I am not saying that Taylor wants us NOT TO believe in the word FOREVER … it’s that she makes me feel real and that’s what everyone has to go through in love. You fall and you got hurt and you stood up again ready to fall into love again, right?

Things I want , for MAY

H E L L O

M   A   Y 

April has been a potful of happiness and some few sad moments but then I’ve made it and finally May arrives which means another full month of… unknown

May

May

nothing much about May, no birthdays or big events

what can I be doing in May??

The first 3 weeks of MAY will be exams…

which means studying studying studying

and my sister’s birthday

then… it comes to Leo Forum 2012 at Langkawi

till then,

good luck everyone in their mid terms !

x

all things french

promoting this tumblr website

FRENCHKISSED

saw this on my dashboard and realized how great this blog provides me with whatever french and paris is just the only thing you can find about this blog.

I find it amazing because for someone like me who loves to get the hell out of this little island can finally have this website to know what is it like to be in Paris

whaddup paris !

Mont. Saint Michael

still, the classic eiffel tower we know

brings up architecture and romance at the same time

 

wherever this is, stunning.

Aix En Provence

chateau Degoine

somehow this picture reminds me of, the movie Monte Carlo

gosh

be sure to visit this great blog !!!

x

insanity

I know my kingdom awaits and they’re forgiving my mistakes

still far away from where I belong, but there’s always darkness before the dawn.

so you can doubt

and you can hate

but I know

no matter what it takes

Plans we made for two

Where have the times gone, baby it’s all gone .

a little bit of monday I feel on a thursday

Everything felt so slow motioned and everything can’t seem to put on a drill.

I seemingly feel lifeless although I am completely tied up.

Exam’s are coming next week and I seriously felt the tension when I walked into the class seeing empty desks and a gang of students having some group study. Teachers are even worse, they cant seem to be considerate by giving us extra time to revise by ourselves, I mean hello ? whats the point of teaching new topics when only half the class attends and , it’s near exam?

I seem to understand what Shakespeare wrote on Life’s Brief Candle

saying that life seems meaningless but this is in another perspective, Macbeth lost his wife….. and I didn’t lose anyone yet, but Macbeth lost something important something that made him want to live every day.

That will be the similarity. It’s not that I am complaining but I felt that I lost something utterly important to me , I knew what is it yet I don’t want to admit it.

Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury…

I believe everything has it pace and time and everything goes naturally….. Life is living by order and everything is destined. I guess I should just STFU and … let everything go naturally.. in it’s own frequency without giving it anything like pushing or going against nature.

I suffocate whenever I have to wake up early in the morning and sleeping late at the night before. I crave for sleep but I still have to fight it , for some reasons why I hate to sleep early.

1. wasting time.

there are so many things I can do before 2am.

2. I am a nocturnal

3. night time is the time I felt alive

I still do watch dramas and … read comics… back to the person I am like before yet.

still

I feel like Macbeth

Something or someone ….

I lost .

Yet

I

didn’t

want

to

admit

this

.

there’s no point missing someone that doesn’t miss you.

x.

Lara

maybe im going to name my daughter LARA one day .

RUBIN

aahhhh this song made me fall in love !!