Things you can do in life.

RECENTLY…

I had been slacking at home thinking, (well not exactly thinking, sleeping most of the time)

Maybe, some of the time were used to rest myself *from the 5 years that I never had that much rest*

Secondary school ended and hell yeah it’s been a great life doing nothing but to read manga and read blogs or check up the latest drama recaps…. The thing is…. I think I am so out-of-sync.

Is it because my iphone is destroyed and I aint hanging out too often with my peers? Or maybe it’s that I missed my job and I wanted to be out there again?

Whether which is true or not… I deny the fact that, I am ready for… college or anything which is , after secondary school. by being frank to you…. I actually regretted the fact that I registered at DISTED so soon, and quickly changing to June Intake…. and I paid half of the semester already!!

Now the text books are laying down right on top of my empty bookshelf… waiting for me to read them. Or- at least take a good glance at them/

I chose arts . if you are wondering……..

I know right for a science student for me shouldn’t be taking arts right?!

But let me just tell you I am sorry to disappoint you that I just havent got half of my life figured out.

I am lucky that I was born in a family that doesn’t make me worry about the bills or, don’t need me helping them to earn money or to earn money for my own living… I am thankful of that.

But lately I really felt disappointed in myself. I mean is it NORMAL… not to figure out what you wanna do in the future?

What J O B u might want to take?!

I know. take a deep breath and imagine yourself… what might you want to be….. what kind of job you would want to have?!?!?!

But due to my limited* choices of my country….. I guess I needed a way out. I needed to venture out there, if by all means for my DREAMS.

Dreams vs. Reality.

What might you choose?

Some people at a point made a breakthrough in life and got both, happily . while others might be financially happy but not , in life satisfied. Some can live thru pain in their work without complaints, just to survive.

What kind of person would I wanna be?

I cant deny the fact that I would wanted a high pay job which can meet my material needs …. like getting myself nice clothes to wear and paying the bills… buying myself a new house and giving my parents money every month.

This is of course everybody’s dream… right?

To be honest.

I always wanted to be a PLANNER. not a wedding planner but someone who makes events that touches hearts someone who creates that special occasion for the special person. Maybe I watched too much of PartyPlanner channels on TRAVEL AND LIVING but still !! That’s what that vigorates me.

planning anniversaries or any celebratory events….. especialy big events… like the opening of H&M!

Imagine picking out goodies for the first 100 customers… or finding the coolest items to be at the fashion show!!! Finding DJs…. tasting food to be served at the buffet…..

WOW.

I wouldn’t need to be stuck at an office…. filled with boring people with the black and white documents……………………………………………………………………………

but right before I start all of that…………………

I guess I could just pursue myself in, ALEVELS.

and work my ass out

study my ass off.

And finally maybe.

I can achieve my lifelong dream.

is that the right choice?

x.