human

the killers are just too great

I salute brandon flowers for his talent in writing the best lyrics, so much metaphor and all of his feelings inside

I did my best to notice
When the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender
I was brought but I was kind
And sometimes I get nervous
When I see an open door
Close your eyes, clear your heart
Cut the cord
Are we human or are we dancer?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancer?
Pay my respects to grace and virtue
Send my condolences to good
Hear my regards to soul and romance
They always did the best they could
And so long to devotion
You taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye, wish me well
You've gotta let me go
Are we human or are we dancer?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancer?
Will your system be alright
When you dream of home tonight
There is no message we're receiving
Let me know, is your heart still beating?
Are we human or are we dancer?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancer?
You've gotta let me know
Are we human or are we dancer?
My sign is vital, my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human or are we dancer?

Things you can do in life.

RECENTLY…

I had been slacking at home thinking, (well not exactly thinking, sleeping most of the time)

Maybe, some of the time were used to rest myself *from the 5 years that I never had that much rest*

Secondary school ended and hell yeah it’s been a great life doing nothing but to read manga and read blogs or check up the latest drama recaps…. The thing is…. I think I am so out-of-sync.

Is it because my iphone is destroyed and I aint hanging out too often with my peers? Or maybe it’s that I missed my job and I wanted to be out there again?

Whether which is true or not… I deny the fact that, I am ready for… college or anything which is , after secondary school. by being frank to you…. I actually regretted the fact that I registered at DISTED so soon, and quickly changing to June Intake…. and I paid half of the semester already!!

Now the text books are laying down right on top of my empty bookshelf… waiting for me to read them. Or- at least take a good glance at them/

I chose arts . if you are wondering……..

I know right for a science student for me shouldn’t be taking arts right?!

But let me just tell you I am sorry to disappoint you that I just havent got half of my life figured out.

I am lucky that I was born in a family that doesn’t make me worry about the bills or, don’t need me helping them to earn money or to earn money for my own living… I am thankful of that.

But lately I really felt disappointed in myself. I mean is it NORMAL… not to figure out what you wanna do in the future?

What J O B u might want to take?!

I know. take a deep breath and imagine yourself… what might you want to be….. what kind of job you would want to have?!?!?!

But due to my limited* choices of my country….. I guess I needed a way out. I needed to venture out there, if by all means for my DREAMS.

Dreams vs. Reality.

What might you choose?

Some people at a point made a breakthrough in life and got both, happily . while others might be financially happy but not , in life satisfied. Some can live thru pain in their work without complaints, just to survive.

What kind of person would I wanna be?

I cant deny the fact that I would wanted a high pay job which can meet my material needs …. like getting myself nice clothes to wear and paying the bills… buying myself a new house and giving my parents money every month.

This is of course everybody’s dream… right?

To be honest.

I always wanted to be a PLANNER. not a wedding planner but someone who makes events that touches hearts someone who creates that special occasion for the special person. Maybe I watched too much of PartyPlanner channels on TRAVEL AND LIVING but still !! That’s what that vigorates me.

planning anniversaries or any celebratory events….. especialy big events… like the opening of H&M!

Imagine picking out goodies for the first 100 customers… or finding the coolest items to be at the fashion show!!! Finding DJs…. tasting food to be served at the buffet…..

WOW.

I wouldn’t need to be stuck at an office…. filled with boring people with the black and white documents……………………………………………………………………………

but right before I start all of that…………………

I guess I could just pursue myself in, ALEVELS.

and work my ass out

study my ass off.

And finally maybe.

I can achieve my lifelong dream.

is that the right choice?

x.

 

 

skin problems

I am just too pissed off with my skin!

I mean what have I done wrong to deserve such skin like this. I believe some of these problems may arise or caused by DNA or any hereditary causes but still I have tried so hard and put so much effort in it in order to get myself a better skin

I see models having fair and flawless skin .

How envy I get you know, probably because they have expensive treatment.

So I just ignore those celebs

But I still cant stand why teenage girls , younger than I am around 14-16 can have fair skin without single puberty problem or any hormonal symptoms that causes break-outs for them,

When I was young I don’t suffer from any acne problem or what- but until now ! HELLO I AM ALREADY 18 YEARS OLD !!! WHY SHOULD I BE POPPING OUT PIMPLES AND HAVING SKIN PROBLEMS ?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?

Last year was the worst for me. I have the worst break-outs whilst everyone can have fair skin and believe me it took me a whole year to get over it.My mom had spent thousands on my face yet…… still no sign of hope.

Skin, if u can see this please do help me heal myself…..

Now I graduated and I spent my days at home treating my skin, trying not to expose myself TOO MUCH of the outside and I wanted not to rely TOO MUCH of make up and concealer. just to have good skin.

I purchased ETUDE snail healing cream and it has healed a lot of my scars >> which is good but then !!!!

I WAS IN CAR TEST AND I GOT SWEATY NOW I HAVE CYSTIC PIMPLE@!!

But then I applied this SALICYLIC ACID PIMPLE REMOVER on my pimple and now MY SKIN IS REDDY AND BURNT!!

WHAT THE HELL.

NOW WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO !?!

I HAVE PLACES TO GO THESE FEW WEEKS AND IM GONNA MEET PEOPLE AND NOW .

MY FACE IS A DISASTER.

please I do hope somehow or someway it may heal as soon as possible,

I darent use any skin care to cure it since they are chemical and I don’t want any harm to my acne burnt scar….

sigh.

Searched google and yahoo answers but nothing seems to help….

sigh.

sigh

sigh

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