a letter to them

 

Dear person I hate,

You deserve to die in hell and some day u might just have all this bad things in ur life then u remembered the moment you treated me so badly.

Dear person I like,

I am not sure whether is it like or love, but I know I like you more than a lot .

 

Dear ex boyfriend

You still have that one place in my heart, but it’s closed tightly so I wont be going anywhere near you. but I do , treat you importantly, once upon a time

Dear ex girlfriend

Hmm, I miss you

Dear ex bestfriend,

You should just die . or suffocate

Dear bestfriend,

I can’t imagine life without all of you

Dear *anyone*,

I am the way I am, it’s not attitude problem, it’s just one of my amazing traits.

Dear Santa,

I want a money printer

Dear mom,

I love you and I promise to be the best daughter and do anything to make you proud.

I apologize for the past few years ive been like a brat but not now,

I’ve all grown up and I will cherish you every single day .

 

Dear dad,

I might not get you sometimes but I do love you in my way and yes I can see that you care in a peculiar way but thank you , I love you.

 

Dear future me,

You must have been laughing at the silly mistakes I did at the past time, but you will sooner regret because… life aint that easy as before .

Dear past me,

Everything’s changed, thank god I survived, you’ve been so strong and you must have been silly to make those mistakes so, no more mistakes, lessons learnt.

Dear person I’m jealous of,

Go and drive a dagger through ur heart, hahahahahahahahahahahaahha

Dear person I had a crush on

Come to PENANG prettyplease

Dear girlfriend

I love you.

Dear boyfriend

I want to see you now .

In fact I hope to see you every minute and every second of the day.

I love you.

Look for friday

morning

oxford heels

levi’s strauss studded high denim trousers

Elizabeth and James ruffle flower blouse

Cath Kidston BB cover

Gem stoned bracelet

Noon

pastel

brooches

scented

 

sheer pink high laced top

leopard iPhone casing

H&M

LV leather bracelet

miu miu handbag

Night

miu miu heels

Jason Wu strapped bag

Jason Wu chiffon top and silk skirt

 

bracelet

 

 

 

 

 

care

the lesser you care, the better you are .

the care, here isnt what I mean about being sympathetic on things. it’s being over- observant on the things u would want to know. For example,

caring to STALK someone . isnt really things you should do , as a favourite past-time . For the past few months Ive developed a serious hobby of stalking, I stalk people on Foursquare, which I am not saying a particular person it’s that I begin to do things I wouldn’t have done, before. I am turning into some social cat which… I don’t think it’s quite a good leaf turnover for me.

one thing about stalkers is that.

once you’ve started

you will never learn to stop.

Which I think is quite true ! after stalking on Foursquare, I would turn to Facebook… then instagram…. etc, etc .

Don’t blame me, blame the boring me inside .

I feel bored easily, not because of being grounded or… mentally abused. I would think myself as… a free from stress week.

The exams had dried my batteries out plus ive lost my specs… and…. that had become such a great obstacle this week. it minimises my drama time and shoujo manga time… and revision time… and. reading.

I have been wanting to finish my Hunger Games, but it seems that I was more engorssed on my iPhone. I told myself day by day not to CARE about those people that wouldn’t affect my life even knowing the things they are doing bvy… CARING or I can say STALKING…..

Dear Venetia Wong,

PLEASE STOP BEING SO LIFELESSSS !!!

X.

exam period

though the marks wont be counted into our placings, but yet this really was the last year for me to actually sit for school’s exam.

There will be college exams and all but , I just want to make the best out of it while I am still a student.

fingers crossed !

things I left out

not blogging for the past 20+ days before February ends is , seriously my mistake.

 

This post is just like a diary to express the way I felt , during FEBRUARY.

To be honest,

I feel.

O L D

Old. really!!!

Because likewise the saying that TIME FLIES, I finally get to understand and actually feel time blew past away me like a rocketeer, I felt that there are so many things ive been neglecting and I just let things pass by … without holding onto it

It’s like ive been on earth for like these 17 years and …. I havent been enjoying my childhood days running like mad on the field or playing hide and seek . I don’t think I was THAT kind of mischievious child who puts glue on teacher’s chair.

But I do remember being naïve and believing that the sky is falling pretty soon and unicorns do exist in magical gardens. I once believed in Alice in Wonderland and I tried eating 7 kinds of bread just to make sure I shrink like Alice in the book.

I do remember the days when I watch Disney princesses movies and mickey mouse. My childhood stories are mostly from Enid Blyton and I still know that the dark terrorizes me as a child and now I don’t think that the dark is the scariest thing in the world.

There’s a saying that the little monsters that we once afraid hiding under our beds are becoming into part of us as we grew up. I lost my sense of humor when I reached puberty and reality begin to hit me when I first experienced the feeling of being betrayed. I started being a cynic when fairies don’t ever come to help me overcome my problems.

Fairydusts don’t make you fly.

There wont be leprechauns , there arent gnomes or any pixies. But I knew they once gave some sparks when I was young.

I never felt that I really enjoyed or sink myself into the atmosphere where everything is possible when I was a child. The 17 year old now, for me misses flying kites, and misses the nursery rhymes that you don’t need to memorize to make you sing so easily. I miss the days when my size of clothes arent as big as the numbers we had on the price tags.

The me now is hypothetically broken.

I don’t know where I belong. I don’t even believe in things such as magic. 10 years back, I believed in magic and … I wished that I could believe as much as I can but , … I am 17 now.

There aint no turning backs. The thing I know now is , I shouldn’t be crying what I should do now is to win this battle and move on , I need to plan things in the future. The world tomorrow , wont be like ABC or as easy as the equations, it wont be fully arranged by our parents or anything done for you, what I have to do is to decide and make decisions.

A wise person once told me that life is about making decisions. Which way you decide might lead you to other ways that maybe, take you to heaven, or it might as well drag you to hell.

It’s like the world had opened so many doors for you, all you have to do is to choose the right door to take you to YOUR destination . If it doesn’t, you just have to find yourself a path to take you back. But remember not to lost yourself.

That’s what I am now, lost.

I know I am not like the shining child I was 10 years ago. Piano and everything, … but now , im all left with these pair of hands and an igniting flame deep down my heart’s core.

It all started… when I saw a pixie and she sprinkled fairy dust on me and gave me,

faith.

 

 

 

the week for me

Hey guys, just gonna make this a quick post of whatever I’ve been through this week.

because of school I don’t get the chance to grab these luxurious bites like before.

all I had was cafeteria food and that’s it.

about sleep, I had much of it because I started sleeping early , after my mom gave me some lecture about, SLEEPING and how important it is to sleep before 12 am.

I missed ramen, a lot

been wanting to go out for some shopping and hunting for a dress for next week’s event on CLHS’ IU DAY

these are some I would wana looook for.

I know it keeps me drooling but , I must really buy a decent dress . not too slutty or too glam just a bit contemporary casual slash classy

korean style suits me best.

maybe it’s because of my height

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too much class

ohmygodddd

florals???

I prefer prints. like that. not florals

pastel !!!!!

shoes.

is a must !!

that might be enough

tomorrow will be our school’s annual food fair which we all prep all food that we are going to sell and all the money goes to the school.

so ,

the 7 of them came to my house to help me make a couple of popsicles.

here’s them.

that’s the only collage picture I took. I know I suck but my camera wasn’t in good , shape so I just snapped it with my iphone with only 2 megapixels

this would be the app called SIMSIMI

It’s a chatting machine that keeps replying whenever you talk to it. sometimes it gives you really rude and stupid comments but you can turn OFF the bad responses if you just go to the settings.

noticed the KOBE SYSTEM but never had the money to EXPERIENCE the system.

KOBE SYSTEM is, a new nike commercial with KOBE BRYANT,

(which I am sure most of you knew who he was), was the ambassador OF KOBE SYSTEM.

NIKE dedicated this system to him !!!
He wants us to ACHIEVE success ABOVE success.

 

 

which the SYSTEM is this so called shoe.

 

Im pretty impressed of NIKE on creating commercials as hype than that, KOBE BRYANT and his so called SUCCESS seminar with those ALREADY SUCCESSFUL students -

We have

KANYE WEST

Aziz Ansari

 

basically in the commercial everyone was dressing smartly in SUITS with that successful yellow logo up there and wearing the shoes

that’s the so called pyramid

this is a really cool one called the BLACK MAMBA which is one of the most dangerous snakes in the world. as a shoe. wow .

BEAST

even

WANG LEE HOM was IN

KOBE SYSTEM !!!!

KOBE

ADORES AND

ADMIRES

LEE HOM !

Even

SERENA WILLIAMS was in KOBE SYSTEM.

YOU GUYS REALLY HAVE TO GO SEARCH YOUTUBE AND WATCH IT NOW !

WELCOME TO THE KOBE SYSTEM

took photos of me with my pinafore since it’s already MY LAST YEAR wearing it.

Might miss wearing it some day and surely I wont throw it away .

 

 

tha't’s prettyyy much about the week

x.