waiting and still waiting

Something happened today

I texted him and explained .

I am now still waiting for his message.

oh god, what the hell did i do wrong

i dont know what makes us this miserable,

i am wrong

he’s not miserable.

i am.

Mr Garnier is him.

it always will be him.

Now i finally know what the feeling is to fall deeply for someone.

In the past relationships, i dont really know how it feels.

He made me felt that there is someone in this world i wanna treasure.

He may not know that he’s a number one inside my heart.

Every morning i hope to see him greeting me good morning.

but that’s a long time ago.

i wanna have that happy mode every morning when i wake up

but i am not sure whether is it coming back to me.

People learn to treasure things when it’s gone

I learn to appreciate what he did to me

Yesterday night, i read through my saved messages,

and i cried

all those messages are soo meaningful and touching

but i didnt realize it till now,

when everything falls apart, i m the one who always stand there wondering and suffering the pain that’s left.

But at least i still know that i really like him a lot.

I am not sure whether is this true love?

Or … just single sided love?

I guess so .

He’s the first guy who made me cry.

He is.

is he Past Tense now?

or is he the Future Tense?

all i know is … i m his past now.

=(

i dont want this to end in a tragic way.

i want to know what is he feeling.

and what makes him feel that way.

I wanna know.

I have already ordered something for the both of us.

two teddy bears

and a necklace

and i think it’s too late for me to give him

and i know i am not receiving the 9.9.09 present from him anymore

but i am still waiting

7 days on the count…

and i am ready to face what’s gonna happen.

i m trying to sound emo here.

i m never emo

now i m?

please,

if you are reading this,

please reply my message

=(

and i am not sure if you are not gonna read it till here.

Please,

i m not ashamed to say

I love you, YeohYunXuan

 

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i miss calling your name

i miss receiving your calls at night

i miss you…

miss your everything

 

do i still stand a chance?

 

 

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相爱的人是否需要把对方绑得牢牢的才能厮守？

TC :)

I loooooooooveeeeeeeeee Garnier

 

I sangat suka Garnier

Light

Moreover,

I sipek sayang my

Mr.Garnier

<3

love you lots;

this is for someone that is important to me.

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing
So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing
That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
Yeah, yeah
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"
Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you thought that it got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When it's all said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

LOVE YOU YEOHYUNXUAN

Cant believe i m posting this out

but i wanna say ILY soo badly

after everything that happened today.

I felt so shit and down on myself

ILOVEYOU DAR. ;D

Love you lots. <3

Him.

went to gurney wif yunxuan and daddy and kahchung

met up with yongfei and her cousin…

i lazy to crap

so .

just 2 pics.

dont be disappointed . =(

stim the both of us O.O

at last, the family photo ! ^^

daddy looked stim . i most pretty inside

:D